aku malas ah nak banyak bebual.
korang ada otak kan. gie pakai tu benda.

fikir apa yang start the problem.
shidah kau fikir masak2 what was the right thing u should have done in the beggining.
nisak,kau fikir betul2 apa salah kau dah buat kat dorang.
and nura, i havent seen u for so long.it seems ure running away and putting aside what u used to call friends.
im nt gonna blame u for anything.u threw my sister away and u took her back just like that.
up to you la,kau da besar.what u wanna say,u just say.ape kau nak buang,kau buang je.


im high strung alrdy.
fucked up people in a fucked up world.
talk it out nicely together.jgn nk mengumpat je. it wont solve anything,it just fuels hate.
tapi jangan bebual gan aku,aku tknk tau pape.

*be happy*think happy*


sweeet.taken away by magic..even with my status,ive got nobody.nobody to really keep my mind of everything.ala,uve been so nice.im trying so hard to be patient with just evrythg.
half of the problem is solvable.while the other half is confusing.trying to just keep mum and then i can just suddenly snap.like i just did with my three kedondong friends.ok.but seeing u just makes my heart smiles.
i dont know why. erhhhhh.


bye.

staircase smoking session.
has always been the remedy.

ok.and i want to thank you.
for making me smile. :) brrhh.
i love u lah maths.

xiao ling also can la.
haha. unexpectedly,fun people. woa.ok.




as the cat snores behind the laptop, i terribly need shopping.
even as im gonna turn 19,i think im still too young to comprehend evrythng that's been
happenin lately.
matters of the heart?
jgn step faham laa dey.

tata.!

i have got so many questions but ive
got no answer.
got no solution.
go no explanation.




ahhhhhhhhhh.where have u been to before this?

so if u're well off does that give you the right to look down on whoever u think is not?
suddenly ppl think drawing a line between them and the rest is cool.
i can get whatever i want and you cant or im better then u or im older then u so means u can never be better. or so u think.
whatever it be la actualli.
please, dont think so highly of urself.
ive been there,ive done that.yes i have.
ive looked down on people until the point where im the one who's been looked down upon.
it's passe la.
so try and get out of ur own well.
dont wait until somebody says "eh sialla,tak tau malu pe sia?"

how come nobody is trynna be humble this days?
and no,im nt pointin out anybody in particular.

its true what my gp teacher says.
we have the technology but most dont have proper moral values.

if u go i go k?set?
k best.
yes.by mister ramzi.
29thapril/tenbucks/woodlandscc.

omg.im sick in the brain.i...erh.have a thing for..old people.imean.no.erh.omg.farz.gilerbabi.
ok.huh.scaryshit.sshhh.erhh.erhhhhhhhhhhhh?????????????the hell siak farz.merepek bodoh kau.
sth must be extremely wrong with the hormones.flush.ineedapackofciggies.hurhh.satucan?erh.shit.
arrrrrrgh.. =/

nightclasses aren't that bad.suddenly inclined to studying. alah,skejap je.

a month plus till i turn 19.
let's start countdown earlier this year shall we.

:))
c ya'll around!.
lovelove.

I closed the door already.
I switched the fan to number 3.
whizzing at it's loudest.
But i still can here them talking.
Their menacing comments seeped through cracks and holes, like water flooding the room.

There's noone here to tell me im full of wrong.
Noone to breathe down my neck.
just being outside this wretched place is a momentary bliss.


nisak,i miss u.

jajatbinks,
i give up ahh.
back to pre-u1 for me.
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrhh.fugg.
nightbookslavery.
IDONTWANT!



PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPUMMMPKIINNNNN!

that one is for those who think they're big shots.
ur rap performance dont bring u money la..
for the one who talked big.
for the one who thought others were lowclass rappers.
for the one who thot we won bcos woodlands is our place,and just plain couldnt accept it.

tsk,tsk.
has retribution come arnd tk?









it probably isnt.but it probly should be.
if it wasnt but think it shld be, then
happy eighteenth to you.
like always.
i just want to be happy.

BYE PEOPLE.

the i.o asked me
eddie;"what did that bangla look like?u remember his face anot?"
faRz;"yeala.he's black."(obviously lah!)
shidah and nisak; "ahaha.."
eddie;"you also black what!"
nisak;"ahah.farz kena balek..padan muka"


motherfucker betul.IM BROWN for god's sakes.
i demand for a change in i.o.

you wear his clothes.
you have his hair.
you have his face.
you even have the same hp number as he does.



but who are you?

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can i noe who made that comment abt the dome kids?
honestly,that's the most self-centered comment.
it's seriously shallow and downright selfish.
maybe it's just you who doesnt know how to appreciate friendship.
just bcos friendship doesnt come on a silver plate and served right infront of you.
please open up ur mind,whoever you are.

if u're nt happy then clarify,dont just make onepoint statements and finalize in ending a precious friendship then regret later on.
what kind of friends do we have sia?
im nt gonna let anyone cloud my judgement on friendship. not even the boyfriend.
bcos i for myself know the different level of friendships. nt everybody has to be my BESTFRIEND.
nt everybody has to help me with my problems.in fact i hate sharing problems.
i may have a terrible friend.who never helps me at all and is terribly annoying.like syafiqoink. lol.
but in a way,when we all gather at dome.when we laugh and make jokes,they lift my sadness temporarily.
no matter how bad/terrible/useless a friend is.
for god's sakes the guys at dome are BOYS.they dont interect with each other on a personal level.
boys are afterall dumb. =)))
BUT
isnt a friend, still a friend after all?

i want to D I E.
can?



don't tell me how everything just sucks.
cos you dont know.
seriously.